Pro/Con

Originally from 9/17/08

I can't stop thinking about...M. I am going mad slowly. Actually, I'm not going mad. Mad was a freakin month ago when we broke up for no real good reason. Alright, it wasn't for no reason. She was turned off so I shut the door and didn't turn around. But now I saw her downtown the other night and can't stop thinking about her. Why? She sure as hell wasn't sticking around to talk, or so it seemed. Part of me thinks we would make a good couple but another part of me knows that there is no way she is worth. She really is a witchy woman though and I am so drawn to her. I wanted to embrace her as we parted ways but it was clear that she was guarding herself so I was stuck between wanting to charge after her or running the other way into oncoming traffic. Does she still want me? I don't know? I don't know anything other than their are strong and vulnerable emotions that can either be analyzed or ignored. I have a sense that we may try again and that idea pleases me but then I think I have to be fucking crazy to even think about that. She just doesn't deserve you. So now you shouldn't look back. Get together. Get out. AAAAAAH. Energy is flowing back and forth. Typical. God, which way do I go? I try to write the words to see what feels best but it's both. Ultimately I feel like it's No. Go. Sigh.

Pros- Turns me on, Smart, Funny, Easy to be with, Gemini, Energetic and Active, Strong, Sex is fun (when it happens), Spiritual, Dancer, Hardworker, The ability to surprise me, Universe likes us.

Cons - Thinks I smell, Doesn't want sex, History of Commitment Issues, Party Girl, Super Young, Preparing me for gone since we met.