Hormones

Originally written on 10/29/08

My God, I'm in a cranky mood. I am definitely about to menstruate. I totally got into a fight with my friend last night and didn't know why I was feeling so tense but now I realize that sensation of wanting to kill everyone. I hate this feeling of just being angry.
I didn't get crap done last night. We were supposed to study for about five hours but ended up not getting to work until 8pm which left me with three hours. Then I didn't understand what to do until 9pm. Two hours. Then when I did now what I had to do, I couldn't understand how to do it. Fuckin' sucks. I wanted to be able to understand but it is a ton of statistics that I just don't get. Meanwhile, I could have revised my paper, taken notes to prepare for my lit review. I just feel so unprepared this week although my reading was done. There was still so much time off task. Also, I still can't get MM off my mind so I feel bad about myself for that too. I just want to curl up in bed but I can't. I have to work, work and more work.
So there's a lot to feel bad about today. Definitely menstrual. Not much patience.